Death, Money, and the Pursuit of Sadness

If there is one thing that is guaranteed in life, it is death. For those who haven't heard yet, Mr. Harpen, one of the greatest high school counselor that Hamtramck has ever had, has passed away. Details of how he passed away are still unclear; he leaves a wife, a couple of children, and a couple of grandchildren.

I've had the honors of meeting the man, and even helping him out on some occasions. He was a kind, yet a firm individual, with a big heart to help out anyone in need. He took a lot of crap from students, but he never went completely bizerk. Yes, he will be missed by many, a tragic loss for Hamtramck High indeed. Finding someone to replace him will not be an easy task. May he rest in peace.


My financial situation, my way to pay for college just got a little easier today. Yes, I called the Welcome Center today and I was guided on how to reverse my declines so I can get a loan. I mailed everything in, and now I have to wait until I am able to get the money. My parents are not happy with the fact that I need to get a student loan, especially my mother. My family's financial situation is already crap, and seeing this, does not not help. I do worry that I will be greatly in debt when I get out of college, hopefully with federal funding and if I get some scholarships, I wont be in too deep.

I've heard so many times that college is expensive, that is true to every word. I never really believed in it, much cared, except for the last couple of days. My financial future is very unclear right now, and if I'm going to be in debt, I might as well invest in my education. I just pray that the Michigan economy improves, otherwise I'm going to be in some deep shit.

I do talk and attack the Michigan economy a lot. Michigan is truly a dreadful place to reside right now due to high job losses, high unemployment, intense crime, and government scandals. It is basically bleeding right now, and I don't think it's going to get any better since it is based on the auto industry, which is dying as well. I'm not going to go too deep into this today, but expect a bigger rundown of what is causing this great state to fail.


I can look at myself in the mirror and I can see the same old JOKER that existed a couple of years ago. Sure, I've grown taller, a little bit mature, but everything that was there a few years ago is still there. The formula of the JOKER hasn't changed too much. I look at my best friends, and I see that they have changed tremendously. I still love them to death, but I have to ask myself, should I change? Should I become more...manlier? Make no mistake about it, I'm still a child in a young adults body. But such change to myself can be lethal. The death of my immature personality means the death of my life. I don't think I can give that up yet. I believe at one point in my life, I will come to a crossroad where I wont be accepted by those close to me, I will be seen just as a big joke. I know that all great things must end one day, but to end for something as stupid as I can imagine, it will be funny. I'm not going to clarify anymore tonight, but sooner or later, I will, and I will have evidence, and you be the judge.


"Smile for me now"
- Tupac Shakur